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I'm sitting for my last exam paper tomorrow, which also marks the last day of my life as a poly student. OMG so fast....

So what I will be doing after my last paper is to celebrate like nobody's business, go and have a proper meal with close frens, do some much-anticipated shopping and go drinking at night! Yay!

I have decided to dance 6 days a week cuz I want to take Claire's hiphop on tuesdays! I'm going to dance like nobody's business. Byebye social life.

Felt very demoralised over term 1 dapee results cuz I failed my across the floor segment as well as choreo. I dun understand why i failed my choreo. I thought i did ok for my performance quality but i dunno how they judged. I hate my knees! They are always bent then whenever I try my best to straighten them when on releve my ankle hurts. Nowadays my left knee starts to hurt more frequently too. And then my stupid big toenails which haven fully grow back to original length after dropping off. OK OK EXZCUSES DANCERS SHOULD NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT THEIR INJURIES. SHUDDUP DAPHNE.

There's no use in telling myself "daphne u gotta improve" " u gotta be focus", all this self-motivational phrases are like auto-repeated but not absorbed. I know i got to improve but sometimes i just feel that I've reach a certain door which i can't seemed to open. I feel very unsatisfied of myself each time i come out of every dance class i take. Kinda going thru a low self-esteem phase now but I'll just have to try to be happy each time i dance. Birthday Bash coming right up. *Nervous cuz I dun wan to f**k up in front of all the people I'll be facing if i join dance industry next time.

I wish that i can go out of Singapore to take dance classes. I hope that I can go to US within this or next year to tryout the classes! Must save up now!

My sister recently questioned my limit of dancing cuz she's concerned that dancing will take up much of my time. She said my level of dance is not very high and there's very low chance that I can make it to dance industry. Of cuz she said it in a nice way but thanks for that vote of confidence arh. Its true that I'm not the best dancer out there but thats not helping my confidence level. Like thanks arh..... If i dun be a dancer i will just join MarCom or something.
- posted by Daphne @ Tuesday, February 24, 2009